"This is the last time
This is the last time
This is the last time I bleed for you"--fuel

Sometimes you got to say no.

This is by one of my favorite artist Barbar Kruger. I really like her work because she uses simple images and words to convey big meanings.

A Little Piece

I recently went home to Texas to help take care of my Aunt Jane. She was diagnosed with cervical cancer and had to be moved to Houston to receive chemotherapy. None of my family lives in Houston so I felt that I should travel back so that I could be by her side everyday. I was unsure how the experience would pan out. I was expecting a depressing three weeks filled with hospital visits and soothing my aunt's fears. This is roughly how the first week went. The first chemo treatment was grueling. My aunt has anxiety attacks so my focus was on keeping her calm and helping her remain lighthearted during the procedure. We were at the hospital for 12 hours and I was finding it hard to not let my exhaustion show. I thought to myself that I was unsure how I was going to make it for three weeks. Then something amazing happened. My aunt made it through the treatments beautifully, she was not heavily fatigued or nauseous. She was so happy to have me next to her that her feelings transferred to me. I began to take joy in the days I would see my aunt and her smiling face. I was able to spend time with her like I hadn't since I was a child. We talked about boys, school and friends. She told me about my grandmother and my great aunt the spinster. The hospitals changed from buildings full of death to people full of life. I think when people know their days are numbered they stop being petty and heartless with each other. I recognized the regulars and asked how their families were doing. I realized that death is inevitable and as some fight it most begin to see it as what it is, a part of life that must be accepted as other things are. Because someone is dying doesn't mean they stop living. Instead of searching for peace, they gave me a little piece of theirs.

"Picture me with you but you couldn't do it. Everything I said was true but I couldn't prove it"

This is just an ad for a single lady. Losers without jobs or intellect need not apply.

"You are just another thing I've yet to fathom"

There are moments in life when you realize that from this day forward everything will have to be different. It's hard for others to understand because these moments don't usually have physical manifestations. What I mean is that one can't simply look at a person and know that they are different than they were the day before. Also, words are words until we follow them with action. I've had one of these moments. Though the moment was approximately two weeks ago things have been different. At that moment I realized that I needed to start living with the integrity I had prided myself on in the past. There are some that say the things that oppress us are religions and society. These people are trying to change the world with their new "intellectual" insight. But they've missed what people have known for centuries, trying to live for yourself with your own rules doesn't work. We do not always know what is best for us. My dad owns a book called the four agreements, basically they are the four rules one should live by. They are: Always be impeccable with your word, Don't take anything personally, Do your best, Don't make assumptions. I agree whole heartedly with these basic principles on life but there has to be something more. These do not tell us to love others, the greatest commandment of all. At the end of the day that's all we have, Love. God's love, our friend's love, our familie's love. Nourish those relationships that contain true love because giving up on them is one of the biggest mistakes a person can make.